I open at the close...

What a year, guys. The world didn't end. Gay marriage and marijuana became legal in Washington.
Obama was reelected and critisized for uncontrollable events.
I got my septum finally pierced and the mustache to go with it.
My boy and I mad it official in February and we are still so very much in love living out each moment presented to us.
On and on and on.

It's been great really. But I must say that the most beautiful and bittersweet moment happened just yesterday to me. I rang up a gentleman for a few household goods and I went to thank him he cut me off and said "you're really pretty. I hope you have a happy new year."
I was really shocked. I just said thank you as I was genuinely appreciative that he just blurted it out.
More so that I've been working with another girl who is super pretty and every guy at work blatantly go out of their way to help her out. I mean guys who normally don't do anything. I envy her to some extent. I'm not jealous because I would hate for people to not even listen to me because I'm just a face. That sounds bad....

Anyways the whole point is that I wish I could do him an ac of kindness and get to know him and be his reference of sorts. Why can't we do that for eachother? We only give bad references to our exes. Not that I wanted to jump over the counter and marry him but I was comforted knowing there are real sweethearts out there. I hope he finds someone to kiss at midnight.
If not, muah. Thank you kind stranger!

Happy new year!
Cheers!

Snowflakes on my Lashes

I made a promise to myself last year after all the crazy holiday happenings that I wouldn't be in retail by next Black Friday. Well here I am. I survived and honestly I'm not ready to be out of the crazy. I love the hustle and bustle. I love customers, even the psychotic/unreasonable ones. And more than anything I'm at a crossroads of what to do with my life.

I have yet to decide what i want to do once I return to school. I don't know where to start! It's not overwhelming but it is a little stressful. Right now is more important than the long run for me. I don't want to spend all my present energy flustered and torn down about my life going absolutely nowhere.

My life is great! I honestly have no complaints other than having no money...who does? You need money to travel the world and go on extravagant adventures. Some of my adventures are of course low budget to free, some of the best kinds are. BUT I WANT MOOOOOOOREE *dramatic little mermaid pause*

My current and ongoing goal is to lose all this baby weight I've gained since high school. It's achievable. I can do this!

Any Now goals out there?

Instagram update

Rain rain stay awhile

I've lived around Seattle my whole life and ice heard it all.

"oh this must be a drizzle to you"
"how can you stand a place that rains all the time??"
"is it overcast all the time like twilight"

The last one I don't justify with an answer...but I love the rain. Sure I can get tired of it but this year I'm welcoming it with open arms! The summer was like taking a vacation somewhere lovely and dreamlike where it never rains and no one ever frowns. But just like all you other humans I'm a creature of habit and I'm not built for skimpy summer fashion.

I prefer to be bundled up in layers upon layers of scarves and sweaters. Since the rains came I've taken to wearing to light scarves, a solid and pattern.

Unfortunately I underestimated the quantity of rain I would wake up to and thought of keeping my shoe choice simple and light with a canvas flat. SOAKED. not even half way through my five minute walk to the bus. I don't mind so much as today is pleasantly warm. But it is a reminder that even though I've survived my whole life without then it's time to buckle down and get some rainboots. Sigh, I thought this day would never come.

Another characteristic of Washintonians is we grin and bear it. We are rarely seen with umbrellas, waterproof jackets, or proper footwear. Makes it easy to spot transplants...

Any other weather cliches out there?
Enjoy the weather whatever it may be. It's a gift. The great wing could've chose acid rain all day errday.

-Britt

nobody loves you when you're 23

Happy Birthday to me!! Wednesday really was my birthday but seeing as trying to get friends together on a weekday for a bar adventure is near impossible tonight is the night!!!
Where? The one and only gay bar in Everett, Bar Myx. Conveniently located mere moments from my Boo's front door! The Crowd is such a mishmash of young/old/gay/straight/drags/goths/hipsters ultamatly who fucking cares?!!! I've met so many amazing people there...not to mention Gian. Anyways I love it and it is so much closer than Seattle which I love but let's face it I'm more inclined to bus to seattle and save myself the troubles of anyone drunk driving.

I missed TILT (Things I Love Tursday) again...time some TILF!!
Pinterest- I mention it so much but seriously! You need a project? You need a cheap fix? you need a recipe?
ALL OF THE ANSWERS ARE RIGHT FUCKING THERE!!

It's also great for finding blogs that have actually interesting content. Honestly, you know there are blogs out there that are just for the pictures...

Celtic Bayou! my sis and her Boyfriend took us there last night for birthday dinner. It's creole and irish fusion...SOME fusion. NOTHING like texmex. Its actually really good! Ruebans,Guinness, and hush puppies YUM!!!

SELF SERVE FROYO!!! We have a Menchies. You might have a Yougurt Extreme or other chain. Last night was Pumpkin Froyo with caramel graham cracker crumbs cheesecake and almonds. The combos are endless and its not bad price either! Definitely an experience worth having.

Today was the first day it rained here! I'm so pumped for fall! i want to wear sweaters and scarves and sip on spicey drinks and bake bake bake!!

whats on the menu today? Pineapple Upside-down Cupcakes for my party at Myx. Thats another thing! i've been to loads of bdays elsewhere and "outside food" is not permitted. I'm not bringing in a cheeseburger just a cake.

But I'm off to toil away in the kitchen while the house is still and calm before I go to work.

Have a beautiful day followers
go jump in some leaves
-britt

Full moon hey moon.

It's a lovely full moon tonight! I'm finishing up season 6 of skins on Netflix and realizing how disastrous Gians house looks. Okay not really but it could use a straightening.

Keeping busy busy. I painted his miniatures and all the guys at the game shop loved them! As soon as I can work out a rate to charge, mostly a case by case based on the detail, I will take some customers! One guy has already decided which one he wants painted. Unfortunately he's on a navy ship that is about to go out to sea. Or is it? No one knows. Either way I'm just waiting.

I sold some hair flowers!!! Yay! My favorite ones too! I'm pretty stoked all around! Now to keep up the momentum for the winter.

I am so excited for fall!! Scarves! Sweaters! Spices!!! I love it all so much! It's like a cocoon! And on the other side I'll be at least ten pounds lighter? We will see.

I don't wanna be serious. But take me, seriously.

It's been a whirlwind month of excuses and event that hindered my blogging.

There was PAX in Seattle. What say you? Housing know of PAX? Well either did I. Funny thing about dating gamers. You end up at things like this. It's a huge HUGE VIDEO GAME convention. Full of tournaments, exclusive pre-releases, independent games, and of course SWAG! companies want you to wear their name and build their business. Simple as that! Part of PAX is all about board and card games as well more specifically Magic the Gathering. Don't worry I cringe too but those nerds know how to party. They threw an after party which, as a professional partier I can guarantee you was phenomenal! Free drinks free food and boss amounts of dance floor action! I even met a mutual gamer girlfriend who was totally down to run amuck with me! All in all I had a blast!

Last week I finally got to see my boys and Ms Laura Jane Grace perform at the El Corazon in Seattle. Their set was nonstop and they played so much of their old classics that I could almost cry. Everyone was super surprised. I was really happy to share my punk roots with my boo who has only really seen me cut loose to super current poppy music which we all love. So grand.

I've been coming to terms with the fact that I should go back to school. Sadly I have saved no money towards that. It is a reachable but far off goal at the moment.

I love and hate this saying but it's going to be a good day "keep your head hopes and heels high" Baberham Lincoln

-britt

Tilt the early Thursday installment

Really what inspired my blog was inevitably things I love Thursday. So here we go.

First things first my hair! I was planning on bleaching it all and going for some orange gingerness. But it was a time constraint that helped me decide to rock out this reverse ombre. And also the fact that my hair is so long! I've had short hair for almost two years but I finally let it grow out. Even better yet my short cut has translated well to a grow out cut!

Secondly this new exercise regime! I set a goal to lose 30 pounds by my birthday not on purpose. The app I'm using calculated that's when I could reach my goal of two pounds a week. It's only been ten days and I lost 4 pounds! YAY! I'm so excited! I'm so proud of myself! I've had a few temptations but I actually threw away a cookie yesterday because 1. It was store bought preservative laden junk of a cookie, and two I didn't know how many calories was in it. They tasted like a lot. Instead I made an array of oven roasted vegetables! Mmm!

Decorating my apartment! I am in love with recycling paper products into festive decorations. We're talking paper flowers made of tissue and a whole bunch of pendent flag garland! My apartment always looks like I'm having a fiesta! Next on my list is a bunch of mini piñatas!

Anybody out there? I havent networked my blog at all so I imagine no one is reading but just in case, hey. Thanks for reading I'd love to hear from you.

Carry on,
Britt

Set Your Goals!!

An excellent ban if you haven't heard of 'em but not actually the point. Well kind of... Ok not really :D

I know of tons of people who don't like to exercise. It is basically something that most people dread. Which is a damn shame. Some tips for you guys which are kind of common sense for life.

-do what you love. love what you do.
You're probably dreading working out because it's not "fun" well make it fun! Ive been discovering tons of workouts via Pinterest. Yes ladies and gents I am all about Pinterest! I love dance even if I have absolutely no grace. But it's fun and I get a great workout moving like a wacky inflatable arm guy. Just remember that you have to incorporate some hard work into your routine somewhere.

-Music!
The music in most workout videos is pretty lackluster. The other day I found my workout much more fun after putting on Fleetwood Mac on Pandora. The particular video I've been watching even says in it following the eat isn't as important as your form. That settles it!

-Think positive!
And think ahead! Whatever pain or fatigue you're feelin is just a precursor to how awesome you're going to feel when you lose pounds and inches an gain confidence, strength and of course health!

-Cant stop won't stop
Power through it! Even if you feel like stopping it's a lot harder to start again once you do. Trust me.

-Naps
Exercising makes you tired. Duh. I give you full permission to schedule a nap. Being well rested and letting your body recover is just as important. I'm talking about a power nap not a two to four hour nap. Personally id rather spend an hour a day napping than staring mindlessly at a TV and probably munching everything.


So there you are! Use these tips or not but find what works for you!

Cheers
Brit

Ps laughter burns calories too.

The ones you love

Don't forget to tell the ones you love how much they matter.

Feelin' hot hot hot!

It was a sure doosey today! Luckily I was at work where at least I was cool even if I would rather be at a large body of water tanning and relaxing.

And even better yet a long hard day of working with a super chipper attitude is rewarded with two whole days off! Tomorrow my man and I are going disc golfing. What could be better than sunshine friendly times and beers? Yes of course there's beer!

I brought back a few gems from Corvallis. One is of COURSE Rogue's Voodoo Ale. It's in a shelf worthy pepto-pink bottle and flavored with bacon and maple syrup. The other is an Invasive Species IPA. it's got a sweet latchtop, excellent graphics, and vegan. Don't know how I missed that whole vegan part or the dollar deposit. I usually just get excited about what tiny little Oregon town it came from. It is an almost guarantee that Gian can't get ahold of it up here. I call it Northwest imports. :D

I taught myself about calorie deficit, which is when you burn more calories than you eat. Haven't quite got a grasp on it because there are a lot of calories your body Burn just keeping all your mechanisms in order.
For example; you eat food to fuel your movement but your body takes some of that fuel to digest that food.
Consuming most of your calories in the morning is important for two reasons: one is your metabolism highest in the morning and two this fuel carries throughout the day helping you to digest the rest of the food.


Anyways I'm health rambling. It's all very exciting. I haven't weighed myself yet but with all the sweating I've been up to I'd be surprised if there aren't some missing pieces of me.

Stay cool and hydrated!
Also a tip about cold water. Ice cold water burns more calories to heat up and then be absorbed so ice it down! However I prefer room temp water when I work out because I can drink it faster.

Get your D!
Britt

A little installment

I'm pooped from my visit to Corvallis today is my first full day off with out travel or hecticness.

Even with working out and taking Gian's dog Nic for a walk I still managed to do a fair bit of relaxing.

Big plans floating in the air for tonight! I just need to decide to take a nap or get out of bed to not feel so sleepy.

I made amazing red velvet cupcakes with matcha cream cheese frosting for Steph's birthday and the were most certainly a hit! The hardest part? Not eating all of them myself. In fact I only ate one without frosting. Yay self control!

Be selfish for a change

It's important to realize the difference between what things you should do for others and what things you should do for yourself.

I've never been skinny. I've never been comfortable with my body. The past couple years I've chosen to ignore my body. I've pretended like I can't see what it looks like or even the effects of what I eat.

The hardest part of ignoring it is you have no Idea what size you are. This is always shoved in my face when I try on clothes. I don't do it often for that reason alone. But I honestly cannot ignore it any longer.

So I am selfishly taking control. I have the power to say now I have the power to control what I eat and how much. And of course I'm the only one who can make myself work out.

And I'm doing it for myself. I want to b happy and I want to be thinner more specifically leaner. It's a long road but with the wonders of technology at my fingertips I can track my eating habits and really watch what I eat.

I know how to eat healthy but yes, it dies take a little more preparation. We are all capable. Those "specialist" don't tell you to do things for fun they want you to succeed.

-keep a journal of everything!
•calories
•recipes
•even how you workout and tips to keep you focused on your goals

-push yourself not to a point of pain but burn

-SWEAT!

-drink water like it's going out of style

I have only been doing this for two day but I am not going back because I know I can do this. And I want to!

Stay strong and DIFY (do it for yourself)

Sunshine!!!

Summer has finally hit Washington! It is fucking beautiful!

I'm in the garden!

On one of the very first days of real summer I got a crazy itch to build an herb garden box. I had some firewood hanging around that looked perfect!

I caved however on growing my own plants. I just couldn't keep my starts alive this year.

Anyways...i got some rosemary, sage, silver tyme, peppermint, and queen siam thai basil which is amazingly hearty!

I planted the rosemary, thyme, and sage in the box because all of those are similar in their woodiness. Peppermint, for those who dont know is extremely EXTREMELY INVASIVE. it can easily take over a small herb plot. My suggestion is to keep it in a pot. So it can overgrow itself. Ive put it in my water bottle and it is so refreshing!

The thai basil is hearty for basil but i chose to keep it inside in the window sill. Im sure that the outside heat wouldnt be good for it.

Grand total? $11.50 for herbs. Dirt and wood i had on hand but it was about $10 for that. So all in all not that bad! And these herbs are going to last a good while. I love rosemary for soup, thai basil for vietnamese sandwiches abd noodle bowls i think it could even hold up on a pizza or pesto!

I love herbs!

I came out to see my lovely rosemary had been dug up and unpooted by my roomy's cat. Oi vey this cat is killing me. But its all good.

Have a beautiful day dear readers!
Cheers
Britt

Go get you some

I don't claim to know everything but what little random information i gather i share with you fine folk.

Our backyards and local parks are an abundance of untapped respources that you could be walking by everyday!
Some of my favorites are collecting mushrooms, only when i am most certain of what they are, berries and fiddleheads!

Most people ive talked to arent familiar with fiddleheads. This surprised me because i live in washington which is has an excellent climate for ferns.
Fiddleheads are young ferns that havent uncoiled yet. They taste a lot like asparagus with a little bit of a peppery after taste. They are super easy to identify as good for eating. Queen annes lace fern is a delicate fern that bears the most tender fiddleheads. Just look under the bunch for fiddleheads that are tightly coiled.
Snap them off and wash em up! Make sure to remove the brown papery casing. Its not really tastey but definatly not harmful.
I saute them in olive oil and a little s&p. I can guarentee they would be great in anything you put asparagus in. Creamy seafood pasta anyone??

If I couldve chosen i wouldve been born a woman.

"My mother once told me she wouldve named me Laura. Id grow up to be strong and beautiful like her. One day id find an honest man to make my husband. We would have two children build our home on the Gulf of Mexico. Our family would spend hot summer days on the beach together. The sun would kiss our skin."

Tom Gabel of Against Me! Recently spoke to the public about his life struggle with his gender. He felt that his timing couldnt be any better with the recent legistlation that stood fast against same sex marriage in North Carolina.

Against Me! Is still planning a full blown european tour as well as playing some festivals with their new lead, Laura.

Ive been following Against Me! closely since 2007 and I cannot express how much their music has weaved its way into my life.

Never be afraid to be who you are. Live every day as true as you can.

Cheers
Brit

Oh Sweet D

Seriously folks: i cannot express how much i hate taking medication. It makes me feel like i dont have control pf myself. But i an now a believer in the power of vitamins. Especially vitamin D. I live in Washington and every year summer seems to take longer and longer to appear. Even though i love it here it drives me up the wall! But with the help of little D i think im finally evening out.

Of course theres always positive thinking... And you know that works. It doesnt matter if youre in a bad mood it is temporary. Its up to you to get through it without inflicting it on anyone else. Misery loves company. Acknowledge it. Accept your feelingS and change it!

This guy of mine isnt the quiclest at seeing my mood sour but he does know how to fix it. He takes me by the hand and swings me around. He doesnt stop until he gets a laugh or a smile. Then he grabs my face and kisses me. Thats the good stuff kids.

I dont want to rely on him for all my happiness but icant deny that it feels good to realize im not alone.

Enjoy the weather rain or shine!
Cheers
Britt

The Little Things That make all The Difference

Hello friends!

Its been far too long as always. My apartment complex shut off the wi-fi because someone was using it to pirate video games. So needless to say have been without the internets at least on my own time when i get an itch to blog.

No worries dear readers "there's an app for that."

Im reporting two things today.
1. Banana bread is not baking. Cakes and cookies require exact measurements. Banana bread honestly just has to look like pancake batter and you are guarenteed a delicious loaf. Ok not really but i feel like i have a pretty good base that i could make it in any quantity.

Heres a secret for you: greek yogurt and steel cut oats.

GRRRRRL you have no idea. The greek yogurt takes the place of oil and you really only need a little container about 1/4 cup.
And steel cut oats provide the hearty crunch of walnuts but much more satisfying. Id say 3/4 cup nuked in water for about two minutes then draned and added.

Delish!

Im also here to report on my relationship. Not that hes amazing and perfect because nobody is perfect but that its okay to not be the same person. Honestly having separate interests has saved us from many squabbles. He loves magic the gathering i dont. I mean he really loves it. And its okay!

But what we do love is food and dancing and having spontaneous adventures. Those are the things that matter.

Abd that everyday we are smiling an we share a sick sense of humour.

I love him a healthy amount. I dont base mty happiness on him but yes he puts me over the moon.

Summer where are you?

Wet Nails Challenge Accepted!

With the constant tease of good weather here in Washington, I become more restless day by day. We've only had a few bright, sun-on-your-neck sort of days but with every tease I get a burst of creativity! I want to craft, I want to watch plants grow and flowers bloom, I want to re work my closet for summertime, and most importantly frolic!

As you know dear readers, I'm trying my hand at herb gardening. Sadly the first crop of starts have all died due to my absence at home. #damnboyfriend But another crop is in the works.

For the past two days two of my biggest time wasters, pinterest and facebook, haven't been working on my computer. What's a girl to do but occupy her time with much more useful activities.

I am preparing my humble abode to welcome in spring and summer. Mostly making sure that when the sun shines through our windows it doesnt reflect of awfully dirty surfaces and piles of unwashed clothes. Also I've been cat-proofing everything. My roommate just got an adolescent male Tuxedo cat who is not as uninterested with my strategically placed feathers and loose clusters of found objects. He's also shown a lot of interest in drinking from my beta, Rauna's bowl. gross. I'd almost raher he drink from the toilet.

He's settled in nicely and he has brought out the friskier side of Rorshache. Here's a picture of the preparing for a lover's embrace:

 I love a good cat heart!

I have a couple friends who have jumped on that crazy nail polish bandwagon and have taken over! They can do some incredible stuff! I am not so patient but I've been enjoying endless color combos and different designs. Thus the entry title. I always paint them and like a small child forget and try to do other things. It's become a game to see what kinds of things i am capable of while still managing not to ruin my nails. Also the number of things is slowly increasing. I have yet to master anything involving the removal of clothes and laundry. Even if i ruin my nails i feel a little more accomplished knowing i didn't sit and stare at them for an hour or two.

I MADE MY FIRST ETSY SALE YESTERDAY!!! It was a vintage purse I've been holding onto for sometime. I loved it dearly but never used it and figured it paired nicely with my hand-painted shirts WHICH! are for sale! For you to buy and cherish and hand down to future generations! yay!
www.etsy.com/shop/therainbowcollective

I'm losing steam a bit so i better wrap up and clean my dinner mess up!

Sweet Dreams Optimists!
 Tomorrow is another day for a new adventure!
-Britt

Everything is Fine

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The Recuers anyone? This scene happens right after they have a really bumpy take off on a seagull and the most relaxing song starts to play. The lyrics "tomorrow is another day" always help me get over all the petty bullshit that can happen in a day. Tomorrow is new and another chance to prove your existence!

Do you ever have a hard time convincing someone that everything is indeed fine? No?
i know its not just me but it feels that way sometimes.

In the past year I've started observing my emotions more closely trying to track down a trigger for episodes of panic, depression, and most annoyingly uncontrollable crying.

Number one suspect is of course a natural part of any women's month the dreaded period. As I approach it i become much more sensitive to things people say and think waaaay too hard on them. I feel alone and sad and I get really quite which is most certainly abnormal for me.
Linking this to my period has made that time of the month a whole lot less Armageddon. It's probably the only thing that makes me look forward to my period, well besides the handy reminder that "hey, you're not pregnant!"The Recuers anyone? This scene happens right after they have a really bumpy take off on a seagull and the most relaxing song starts to play. The lyrics "tomorrow is another day" always help me get over all the petty bullshit that can happen in a day. Tomorrow is new and another chance to prove your existence!

Another trigger is definitely strong-headed people who just don't consider your opinion even worth acknowledging. I encountered a moment like this this morning when my new property manager decided that she needed to talk down to me about a late fee that was applied to our rent. Yes the rent was late but another manager waived it because shes awesome and knows we are good residents otherwise. This new manager put it back on there without notifying us and her notice was telling me right now. Really? is that how you notify someone of a late fee you already charged us....? She is just a personality that should not be in any direct contact with people. She said that if i did not pay it, it would be forwarded to next month and would be automatically paid for with rent checks and then rent would be shown as unpaid and thus another late fee.
The whole time she is arguing loudly in order for me to back down and take it. I did not she said she would print out a ledger and i said awesome so that i could see what the heck is going on and compare it to my bill.
Then out of the blue "Oh wait we have a one time late fee waive that you can use!"

WHY DID WE JUST HAVE AN ARGUMENT!!?!? Thank you for wasting my time! I could not believe it. Everything is resolved but i went back to my apartment fuming and ready to punch a wall.

It took awhile to calm down but I did so after a long period of crying. Not sad crying not rage crying just uncontrollable face leaking. And this is where the everything is fine comes in. The boyfriend didn't believe that i was fine that i had calmed down. He is very intuitive but i think in this case everything was still fine! i dont know how else to explain it to him. At that point talking about anything sounds pathetic and over-dramatic because I'm crying. It's best to just let it be until this episode is over. Of course poking and prodding the bear just makes me frustrated and I hung up on him....

Any thoughts fine people of the internet? How do convince people that this will be over shortly and we can return to normalcy?

Holy Popes Batman!

Holy Popes Batman! by bettyoakes featuring oversized tops

Hallelujah!

Spring has sprung! I am ever so excited for the sun to burn off the overcast here in Washington and peek on through!

Since i'm not feeling as committed to this apartment here in Everett, I'm going to just stick to a varied herb garden.

Sweet basil for Italian.

Cilantro and Thai Basil for delicious Vietnamese goodies like Banh Mi and Pho.

Lavender for luck #naturally.

Sage for Burning and it's Odor fighting properties.

Rosemary because I've missed mine so.

and I think Thyme just for good measure.

Most of these are slow growing herbs because of their wood nature so I started them months ago in hopes of having something to show for it by summer.

Three words: Herb-infused Libations!

so pumped guys!

Once the weather warms up a tad my bou and i are going to run. Last time i went to the doctor I was an alarming 180 WAAAAAH. A mere 4 years ago i was 156 and that wasn't even comfortable. I'm surprised at how comfortable i was but now i can feel how much extra me is hanging out.

But never fear spring is here and i'm cleaning house! Mind Body and Gian's house whether he likes it or not. Boy needs some order

Let me leave on a positive note.

In the great words of Miss Ru Paul "if you don't love yourself, how the hell do you expect anyone else to?"

Southward Bound

Currently I am aboard a train headed for good ol' Corvallis. As much as I am enjoying not living there with my life on hold, I kind of missed it.

I mean c'mon 9.2% sales tax? you're killing me right meow.

And a couple elusive products that i can't seem to get up in Everett. One is the signature Yumm sauce of the Cafe Yumm franchise. Swear to you it goes with anything...ANYTHING. Secondly there's Blue Mist shisha. WHY DIDNT I KEEP MY HOOKA!!??? Anyways blue mist is a blueberry/peppermint tobacco blend. MMM!

More importantly I'm making this trip for a very special lady. Alisha made a place in my heart from the first day I met her. She is a special special friend. So close yet so far away. I love her!
Words don't even come close to describing her.

In other news. Three months ago I was seduced home by a Puerto Rican at the local gay bar. How does that even happen? Well first you have to accompany your gay brother to said gay bar and tell him you are looking to snag some action. Said brother must then commence heavy drinking which will turn into telling random strangers of your plan. One of the aforementioned strangers turns out to be an old high school friend who is not only uninterested but also taken. And that's where i come into this scenario. My newly found freedom to be promiscuous brought me to this very moment.

It started as nothing more than a few casual encounters with even fewer words exchanged. But it quickly evolved into a most magical butterfly of a relationship :)
I love this kid so much and everyday I am surprised and grateful at the same time to find someone to be silly with! He is silly so so silly.

Ladies, This is very important. If your man cannot laugh at himself move the fuck on because its humility and everyone needs some.
Laughter breaks the ice, solves conflict and it's the most beautiful and true depiction of who you are!

Remember to laugh!
Remember to cry!
Remember that life is too short to not enjoy every moment!

xoxoxo
Britt

Great Expectations even Greater Let Downs

Let's face it folks, expectations are the work of the devil. Never want to be content and satisfied with what life has to offer? Have unrealistic expectations. For the most part I'm talking about people and relationships. I think that striving to be a better person and succeed is fantastic and never ever give up on your dreams. But some things are best left as is.

Recently I've been disappointed in the people around me. I do not take kindly to fake sympathy especially when it comes from a forced confession of my inner workings. I am a very open person but sometimes I want to put my emotions on the back burner and enjoy present company.

and that's okay!



I recently was matched up with someone i expected nothing from. Someone that at first kept everything as light and superficial as possible. For almost a month I knew nothing about him, and it worked. But we are all human and human qualities are hard to avoid...as well as your true self.

He is a nerd. He's one of the silliest people I've ever met. He has a baby boy pup that he loves so much and doesn't care who knows. He's great. Things may not be perfect. Things may not work out but I am enjoying our time together. I'm living the now. And it's a great adventure.

Do you know what makes this so easy? I love myself. Unconditionally. I am a single being who doesn't need anyone else to be complete.

Everyone should be so comfortable with themselves this way. That is the best thing you can bring to a relationship and to life in general. It shows people who you really are. If you are loyal and trustworthy that will show when you let your freak flag fly.

I'm in a great mood.
Sometimes I'm not. Accepted.

Carry on and Dont let them get you Down.

xoxo
Britt